I Love the 80s

How did anyone growing up to the pop songs and videos of the 80s turn out straight? Celebs like Boy George, Marilyn, Erasure, Dead or Alive, David Bowie, Madonna,. These men all wore enough makeup, lip gloss and glitzy costumes to make Marilyn Monroe look dowdy...what?..Madonna is a woman?..Are you sure? Really? (Kidding Madge, you know I love you! Don't sue me. :-)) The 80s music industry also saw androgynous women like Annie Lennox, Madonna, Sharleen Spiteri, Lisa Stanfield, all beautiful, all strong, all inspirational as women and as human beings.  

I'm a child of the 80s. I admit it. I love the music,. I know I can already hear the strains of grandpa from you young folk. But I tell you there was no better decade for good music, video cassettes, Rubik cubes, Gremlins, Transformers.  I could go on, but I wont. 

Positive things today. I made my first sale as an artist.

Is this my Reality?



Half Full or Empty

 Why is it that people accept negativity as a reality and positivity as a fantasy? I'm been feeling blue for the last couple days and it shows. Anyway I was talking to a colleague and she basically said that it's not natural to be positive all the time. It's not reality. WHAT!? So it's seen as facing reality if you are a "Misery Gus" but not if you are a "Pollyanna". B******t

A lot of people seem to possess this view of reality. "That's life. It's just the way things are. Life is serious",  they are always saying. You know the ones. They settle for what life gives them and are thankful. F**K that!! There is no way I'm going to settle. If I go down, I go down fighting.

PEOPLE WAKE UP!!. We make our own reality.  We may not have control over everything in our lives but we damn well have control of our attitude towards the event.

Take the singer Madonna, please!! LOL. Say what you like about her, she came from nothing and has achieve a helluva lot. You've got to admire her tenacity, marketing and self promotional skills. Whatever happens, no matter how many times she gets knocked down she always gets back up.

"They say that a good thing never lasts
And then it has to fall
Those are the the people that did not
Amount to much at all."
(Madonna, Give it to me)

There's beauty all around us



Caroni River Mangroves

  This is a picture of a Mangrove swamp i toured. It's amazing how you can live day in and day out and never realise what beauty is on your doorstep.



The real hustle and flow: catfish fishing

 Monday morning when you're rushing to places of steel and glass, stressed because you're late take a breath and think of this, just because it's important to you doesn't mean it's important.

Dirty Little Secret

Well it's the end of another work week. Same old same old. More work than there is time. But my new attitude is helping me handle it. I am learning to let go and maybe enjoy life a bit more.  At the moment that means I'm watching a rerun of Star Trek Voyager. Yes I admit it, I'm a Trekkie. Live long and Prosper.

Coming soon. A new era of entertainment.

Choices

Everyday we make choices. The choice to take the bus or walk, to go left or right. Whatever choice we make has seen and unforeseen consequences. Today I couldn't help think of the choices I made in my life and wondered how different my life would have been. I could be living in another country, speaking another language, be married with child. A whole different me.

Do I regret any of my choices? No. They were made using the information I had at the time. The result of emotion, desperation, fear, snobbery and sometime logic. Am i stuck with my choices? No. And that's what sets me free. Knowing I can walk away from all this anytime I want, because even that is a choice.

What choices did you make today?

Musings

Well, I've had 2 yoga classes, it's interesting. Yoga seems to be one long stretch. It is Hatha Yoga after all so I guess it's not as intensive as the others.  I'm sticking with it and see what happens.

I'm thinking about having a child and I think it's a huge responsibility and cost and then maybe I should wait till I'm more settled. Anyone who's ever seen the movie "Idiocracy" will know what I mean when i say this is a bad idea. Go forth and multiply.

Day four of my Positive Thinking project (breathe in positivity, breathe out negativity)

Saying yes to everything has it's good and bad points. It opens a world of opportunities. However what you do with those opportunities is up to you.

I've created a blog to chronicle my thoughts and ideas which in itself is strange because i've never really had an interest in blogging before. I tried Yoga for the first time, attended my first ever ballet (Alvin Ailey), and talked to a stranger without feeling self conscious (that's a biggie in London).

It's all about conquering fear...Fear of the unknown, fear of looking stupid or being embarassed or of letting people in. Being aware of this on a conscious level has allowed me to approach fearful situations differently. From releasing a spider instead of killing it and ask questions later(my default setting) to understanding a hostile coworker's reaction is like that becuse she's scared she messed up and shouting and screaming at the people around her isnt going to make it any better. You're still f**ked.

Welcome to the rabbit hole, Alice

Think Positive. The Law of Attraction. The Secret. We've all heard them. Lately it seems you cant crack open a bottle of anti-depressants without some do-gooder telling you that it's all going to be OK if we just believe. No money? Just wish it and it you will be yours. Need that new house? Visualise it. Boyfriend left you for some stank whore? Think positive, maybe she'll give him an STD. OK, maybe that last one wasn't exactly what they meant by positive thinking. But it all sounds so ridiculously simple.

But maybe that's it. Maybe it is just so simple that it just might work. What if you could create your own reality? What does that mean? Think of the implications. All the things that have happened in your life up to this point is your own doing. You're the reason you're in a messed up relationship. You're the reason your job sucks. You choose to stay there and made it your reality.

Creating your reality. Law of attraction. None it it happens in a bubble. Thoughts need to be followed by actions as dreams become goals. You complain about your job-are you giving 100% or doing as little as possible. Visualising about that better job...did you updated your CV today? Looked at training opportunities at your office. Further Education courses? Got a family, too old, too tired, too busy, making excuses? You just spent 8 hours working for the MAN. How many hours have you worked for yourself today?